Dubstep Ender Fox (annedubstepfox) wrote,
Dubstep Ender Fox
annedubstepfox

Outrun

I won a ceramic flat iron  on quibids for like... .01 and well it's pretty awesome. Plus, I won it on bid tokens I was given for joining.

Other than that, nothing else awesome has happened. I'm still losing weight (not that I was extremely fat to begin with) and I have a doctor's appointment for June 10th in the morning. I don't like the idea of pap smears, but it's preventative care so what am I complaining about?

Also, day 3 of this 8 day stretch... this is my last dat of 4-9pm before 2-9pm starts and then next week it's 2-10 again. Too long. But I'm getting paid and I have plenty of stuff to keep my mind occupied during breaks and lunch. It's a distraction for feeling so...

I don't know... I guess I feel like a caged tiger no matter where I am and what I'm doing. I feel like I'm trying to outrun something, but it's almost always behind me. I'm marking down days on my calendar, but I have no date set for this feeling and how to deal with it.

As I sad on experience project to another user... it feels like I'm just waiting to die. I guess I'm still pretty sick of life, but I'm too much of a coward to kill myself.
Tags: quibids, suicide, work
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