Dubstep Ender Fox (annedubstepfox) wrote,
Dubstep Ender Fox

I did it

I told Kristian how I felt.


I actually wrote him a letter to explain why the day before yesterday I had been rude and awkward.

My sister was supposed to give it to him for me.

But she went back on her promise and left me to do it.

I gathered my courage and gave it to him.

My sister was vague about his reaction after I darted out of the breakroom and he read the letter.

He probably thought I was pretentious... writing in cursive, in ink, sealing the letter with wax... he probably hates me.

Well good.

At least I finally got that off of my chest so I can breathe easier.

I don't care if he ever returns my feelings I just wanted to get it out. If he rejects me, I can feel sad for however long and recover. Then go through the long process of building up my walls again.
Tags: apology, help me, hopes, humiliation, love confession, shame
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