But as soon as I wake up I feel like a field of energy shrinkwraps itself around my entire body.
I feel weighted. I feel tingly. I feel trapped. I feel dread.
There's a slight tremble in my hands--entire body even. I feel electric, but not in a good way.
I'm watching all around me--not with my eyes--while trying to do the most basic things.
I don't think breathing exercises or calming music is going to help either.
So it's back to the benadryl. It's back to sedating myself until I figure out a better method for stopping this shit.